Marian wrote:My greatest difficulty is that I am asked about my religion very frequently. This leaves me in a position where I either open up and people start to go down the road where I have been, or I keep stum and deny people the right to learn from my teacher.
What do you mean by people starting to go down the road where you have been? Are you saying that's undesirable? If so, how?
One of the things that strikes me about what you said is that you seem to have limited your options to only two choices. Isn't it possible that there are a panorama of choices that might be open to you? If there were, how would you open yourself to them without asking other's opinions? What would guide you to such choices?
I go back to my earlier question about how you work with Divine Spirit. Also, to points that Vidyanet alluded to. In my experience, I've found that the most important decisions one ever makes have to come from direct, one-on-one contact with Divine Spirit -- whatever form that might take -- and not from the opinions of others (which are seldom helpful unless they suggest other possible ways to work with Divine Spirit). What does your teacher say about such things? What is your inner teacher telling you (if anything) about how how to address the issues you see before you? One sense I get is that you are trying to reason your way through your issues, and have been doing so for a long, long time. Has that been working for you?